yea…..
that’s all i kind of have to say right now. It’s crazy because all i did was read a damn astrology post. Thanks a lot Big Empress Energy. Although I think her real name Clementine. That’s Pretty bad ass.. but that’s not what this is about.. this is about her message. You see, some people have it and some people don’t.. and i’d like to say that she’s got it. She’s my go to astrology girl and it just seems like she is one of the best I’ve personally seen and she’s extremely passionate about her craft. In short, she’s good… maybe too good with the astrology.
Let’s talk about the message and the story…
It was a sunday and for some reason I was feeling a big apprehensive. I could just feel a change coming and I get uncomfortable with change sometimes. I look up at the moon to see if we are about to have a major moon cycle or something. But there was nothing…
I figured something must be going on in the astros because what i felt coming was major…
I head on over to @bigempressenergy on Instagram to see if anything was coming up and yep… my gut feelings were right. This is what i saw
Can you imagine the feeling i felt? Like my gut was on the floor. That didn’t make me feel good at all lmao. Because i Know how this works I know that there is no running and there is no hiding. What is meant will be and we are not in this alone. This is divine intervention. Everything is divinely guided. Even at times we may feel alone, we are never alone because we are all a part of a larger collective. I could go on and on….
I was already in a very rocky space trying to hold on so hell yes I was apprehensive lmao
Anyways, As the days went on i lived as normal keeping the words of big empress in my head. I was waiting to see things unfold… I was eager even.
Boom…
Friday came and there was chaos. Coincidence? I think not.
That’s how this works… I knew i should have gotten more prepared when I saw that it affected scorpio placements… Thats damn near all of mine. I knew that whatever was coming was meant and i had to thoroughly believe that. I had to see no other way but this was all for my highest and best good because the chaos that came after was unbearable at the time….
I had the most beautiful day with my family for it to end with us being torn apart. My whole world disrupted… I was in the worst mental battle of my health…There were times i thought i wouldn’t make it through… All I could see was darkness and confusion. I felt like I was at my lowest .. I was being pulled in so many directions with no where to find relief…. Everything I had been putting off came to the forefront and everything I once used as a crutch was removed. I HAD TO EVOLVE…..NOW.
The events that followed that friday still has my like shooken up to be honest. I won’t go into detail but in a way im glad the tragedy came across and shook things up because it shook me out of my old ways, my old habits and old beliefs that once held me back. I was free from the shackles of my old self because i was forced to become a new me… Don’t get me wrong there was a real mourning period. Some days i felt like i couldn’t make it, other days i felt like i was dying of a broken heart but there were days where i felt like superwoman as well.
Even though life had hit me, I couldn’t allow myself be be down. I couldn’t allow myself to stay down. I had to pull myself together and fucking pivot.
At the time things felt so overwhelming… I must admit. I went into straight panic mode because at this point I was in straight survival mode. I had to get myself together and fast. All of my lifes problems hit me at once and I mean ALL OF THEM. I couldn’t help but feel like my life was literally over… It was too much, all too sudden..
I could feel my self about to give way as I was pulled and stretched but i had to get my mind right to come to my senses… I felt like a dragon Ball Z Character going super sayian… I felt like a werewolf going from human form to wolf.. Like a vampire thirsty for blood but they’ve never had a sip. It was excruciating and it still is…. Its only been 6 days.
That brings us to where we are now… the pivotal part of this whole situation… I mean who knows if its really the peak but i sure hope it is. Through all of this i learned that time stops for no one. I also learned that life simply goes on if you aren’t there. Most people don’t care, and the other people are simply glad that it’s happening to you. I guess its nothing to take personal. It just shows your importance in their life and how much they may or may not value you.
When your back is up the wall, you have to figure out things out quick. Your next move could either be your best or worst. Either way you have to keep going. Especially if everything rides on it… Some times it isn’t so severe but what happens in the case that it is?
Sometimes life smacks the shit out of you and you don’t even know what to expect because it was so unexpected. And there are other times where exactly what you anticipated shows up and knocks at your front door on cue.
When moments like that happen the reality is, you have two choices. One… cower and succumb to the circumstances or situation or find a way to think smart and efficiently to decide on the best next action to take and do it. Sometimes the choice you make will directly impact every other part of your life, so always try to make your best move.
Sometimes the death of your old self isn’t so bad… But that doesn’t mean that it’s easy. Things got hard and it was time for me to pivot and give it my best shot… It lead me to be writing this blog post right now… a project that i put off for far too long.. Every year I set up a new blog and I never follow through. Theres always something that comes up within me that doesn’t make me feel worthy. So I put it off year after year…
With this chaos that came through my life it made me land back on this passion of mine. I must say it feels good on this side. I know that if i just keep going I will reach all of my goals… This pivitol situation is helping me climb into my best self.. Everyday I ask myself… what do you want? I give myself a few moments to see the things I want and then go go full force at it. I see now that there is nothing that I can’t do. Its meerly a series of choices… Will I go get what I say I want or wont I? It all can be so very simply.
When things come your way… pivot.
Your future self will thank you later.