After my chaotic tornado of life events recently I have decided that I am ready to come back to me.
In a healed childhood trauma kind of way… yea.. we bought it back.
this chaos bought up so many wounds, limiting beliefs and self doubt.
after all of the chaos, I was left standing there looking at what was left of the life I once had and I got to see who was really there for me. In that moment i got to see a lot of the people i believed were closest to me true colors. I got to see true feelings, motives and intentions. I got to see levels of devotion, respect and even manipulation. It got deep deep…
but now, for my favorite part…
the part that leaves a smile on my face as I stare at the reminents of my life…
The test of myself… The things I went through and evolved through and even came back to was almost magical. I got to see my strengths… my weaknesses… My team and my enemies..
I got to see what areas of my life needed attention and what and who I truly loved.
Now I get to focus on building an even better relationship with my husband that doesn’t have 19 reasons why I want a divorce attached. I now had the opportunity to see and cultivate 19 reasons why I refuse to let you go…
There’s something powerful about that shift in perspective. But whats even more powerful is realizing that you have the permission to feel through your emotions and allow yourself to go on that journey no matter what yours may look like for you.
Now I’m building the business I used to dream of having as a little girl. The same me that would sell her handmade jewelry to her classmates and teachers… The same me standing behind the table at the flea markets with my mom on the weekends trying to sell my handmade jewelry as she sold things from our house or random things my dad would buy for us to sell. That same me is now the owner of a online business where my hands is in everything that i sell from my shirts, Pins, or jewelry. Who would have thought? While we are small now, something tells me we won’t be small for long…
The chaos bought my passions back out of me heavy because I realized that I didn’t have time to wait around anymore. I didn’t have time to think about it anymore. Time was out and I was either going to sink or swim… If you know me, you know I’m not one to work a job. It just isn’t my thing and never has been…
For one i hate authority and I personally choose to believe that I was not put on this work to just WORK or get a J.O.B. that keeps me just over broke as they say. so there you have it.
Anyways, when you are in a situation like that nothing else matters but the decision. Whether you make one or not, one is picked. It’s always up to you what decision you make… I made a decision to come back to me and what felt good to me for me.
Through all of the chaos I found me.
It’s truly the most beautiful feeling in the world, to find yourself in a world where you can be anyone.
You can’t find yourself if you don’t go looking for YOU. It becomes a personal journey that can lead you to where ever you allow it to. The choice is all yours…
While you’re looking for yourself protect your energy, vibe and your mind. No one can know you better than you so work on building that relationship with yourself. You may be surprised what you can teach you about you.
explore, try new things, revisit things from your past, do things that make you loose track of time. Go find you because you are worthy of knowing who you truly are. We all have our own unique light within us… don’t be afraid to find and shine yours.